Another rough night!

Once again it is 3am and I've been up all night crying!  This is so not fair!  I lay next to my husband as he is so sick and there is nothing I can do to help.  He hasn't even had chemo yet and he is still sick all night and laying there with chills.  I know its because the cancer is killing him and it makes me so damn mad!  Why can this be happening to a young man with three little kids!!!!!  It's not fair, it's not fair, it's not fair!!!!!!  There is so many pieces of shits living their lives and yet a good man has to go through this!  I just want our normal life back and Chris be back to his old self!  I hate this so much!!!!  The pain just gets to be too much to bare!!!!!  Why!!!!!!!!!!!